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Author Name: FreeJimiMuller 2 Comments
Date Added: February 18, 2003 13:02:12 Average Score: (Needs 2)
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I'm Trying So Hard To Die
It's so cold on this bridge
All alone with no kids
I cant see whats happening
All I can see is black
Red monsters keep surrounding me
I dont want to know
These vivid pictures are frightening

Things arent supposed to look like this
Blood everywhere, it's bliss
The rain is coming down
I'm soaked in my own sorrow
Blinded by my darkness and hatred
Cut down by my own words
I'm so afraid of clowns

Bright colors scare me so much
I also have a fear of being touched
I dont understand the feelings I have
I'm manipulated so easily
I will never melt with megalomania
Its so easy to kill
Sit back and laugh

Lost in all these emotions
Like they gave me a love potion
All i can do is sit and cry
Everything always goes wrong
I do everything i can
It has no effect on my life
I'm trying so hard to die
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Comment By: FreeLaurieAnn on July 2, 2006 07:21:39 PM Report
sad poem very moving. deppression is a horrible thing i have experienced it 2.remember you can speak 2 people about it you dont need 2 go it alone.

suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem.

Comment By: on February 18, 2003 01:37:43 PM Report
mass confusion and depress, yup, I've been there too! Thanks to God and my wife, I realized how much power I really have over these two demons of dispair. I liked your poem.


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