When Will I
When will I finally be family?
When will I be let in?
When will I get ,
to be allowed to be heard and seen.
Right now ,
a wallflower I've been allowed to be.
When will the uncomfortable stare downs ,
and hateful gossip come to an end ?
when will I be appreciated ,
for all the Love and help I give?
Is respect something that in your mind,
Why must I struggle and fight,
to have and to receive?
Should I always hold my breath,
and wonder where the eggshells are?
Is the wicked step ,
always be played to when I am down ,
be bully and kicked ?
Is there a sense of peace for us all ,
near or far?
I always take the blame ,
for your irresponsible lashing out insane,
leaving me naked ,vulnerable and from you,
deliberatly in pain.
Is the an honest day,
where a friendship can,
be the new real way?
I just want to be part of the family.
I just want to be accepted and let in.
Ten years of abuse and struggling,
and I still hope and pray.
I hope and pray,
you see the love that is there,
that the love I know you have ,
you will share with me ,
I long for the moment,
when I will finally be part of the ranks.
When will I?
As for tonight,
it is another night alone.
I have left to be broken and cry !