Itís been 10 days since Chris Cornell died. On May 18, 2017 (which, I think, was May 17 in my country the Philippines), I was enjoying my salary. I had just finished shopping for a dress and some makeup tools and toiletries. I was about to eat my dinner in Kenny Rogers Roasters when I received a text message from my brother. My brother texted me that Chris Cornell died. My heart sank and I was sad. I forced myself to eat my so-called "cheat mealĒ which I was supposed to enjoy but didnít. Life played a cruel joke on me. I am a fan of Chris Cornell and his death made me sad. So on that night, I listened to his songs and even posted some of his music videos on Facebook.
I discovered Chris Cornellís music when I was a teenager. Music channels like MTV and MYX would play songs by his band Audioslave. I love their songs "Like a StoneĒ, "CochiseĒ and "Show Me How to Live.Ē His voice was beautiful and deep, and his lyrics were dark. He was one of my favorite rock singers.
I only learned about his other band Soundgarden when my friend in college recommended me their song "Black Hole Sun.Ē That song is amazing. I love its eerie lyrics and catchy tune. Iím a huge fan of songs with weird lyrics. Iíve watched the music video of that song a thousand times even though it made my skin crawl the first time I saw it.
I heard his song "SunshowerĒ in the movie Great Expectations. From that moment, I thought it was his best song. The song sounds romantic and his voice is sexy. IĎve always thought it was a love song that you could dedicate to your significant other. It really sounds like a love song. But when I read the lyrics and tried to understand it, I realized itís an inspirational song. It tells us that when we go through dark times, we shouldnít worry and itís going to be all right. ("Itís all right. When youíre all in pain and you feel the rain come downÖThough your gardenís gray, I know all your graces someday will flower. In a sweet sunshower.Ē)
Itís a love song you dedicate to yourself. Clearly, he was a talented and genius musician. I canít imagine anyone else who could write a song like that.
To be honest, I only know a few of his songs. So I canít say that Iím a massive fan of his music. But I loved Chris Cornell as a fan. I remember writing on Facebook, "If I were a guy, I would love to have a voice like Chris Cornellís.Ē He had a distinct voice, with a wide vocal range. Itís as if he could sing any song regardless of genre.
Aside from his great voice, I also admire him for his handsome face and hot body. Now that heís gone, Iíd truly miss those things about him.
He was an inspiration and his music has helped me through dark times. I still canít believe he committed suicide. Heís the kind of person who seemed like he had it all. Why did he do that to himself?
When I found out he was battling depression, I finally understood why. Depression not only eats your happiness, it also eats your soul. I think no one has the right to judge him or any person who committed suicide. None of us knows what was going through his mind before he decided to end his life.
Rock in peace, Chris Cornell! I know youíre up there in heaven playing music with all the great legends!