What do you do when your perspective doesn't fit the world's? Understanding that people don't really care or want to know who you are shows what this world has really become. This world is nothing but trades, deals, and contracts. The word love doesn't even apply anymore. It has finally lost its true meaning. The fact that someone will act like they love you just so they have a home is so depressing. So how do you know what's genuine or fake? You see things that show what a person's worth is. Only a few souls actually give a damn. The others just people who are in your life out of obligation or dependence. If life is just a mediocre survival, then what's the point? If you get a better job or a bigger house is that going to make you happy? Going to the best schools and getting the best grades. Those statistics don't really matter in the grand scheme of things. Anyone could beat the shit out of you in the city, leave you for dead, and not think twice. The fact is that, that person just got a meal, a shelter, a comfort from robbing you. So why not? Just because someone says it's wrong or immoral doesn't mean shit to a person who has nothing and no one.
So when do you choose to give up? Or can you give up? That's your choice. People think that if you kill yourself you go to hell. For alot of people that's why they can't kill themselves. Or because they have too much pride, guilt, or fear. Having too much of any of those problems can make living very unbearable. Knowing that this doesn't get much better fustrates the hell out of you. So what? Your just supposed to go on trying and trying just to come out the way you came? If you find what your meaning is hold on for your life. Because, when you get to the point when nothing means anything you will wish you had appreciated things when they were amazing.