Most all my life, I've been seen as an object
Instead of, for the true queen that I am
Always desiring and wanting
To be the only light within my love's eyes
Unfortinately, I have not met just one guy
Who truly wanted me to be that only desire within his heart
Always another sight reflected his burning flame of desire
Instead he always turned his eyes a stray
To see past the true beauty that lives within me
As he moved on to find someone new..
Maybe it's been my fault along the way
For those past love's I've had to walk away from
Maybe it was one of them.. but if it had a been
Why did he not come for me?
Maybe he would had came back to me
If only he had a known before now..
But unfortinately he has not..
I gave of myself to a few along the way
Thinking that it was true love..but then
I found out later, that they were not
It was my heart they played as our last love song
As a broken record still plays inside that old juke box
Of yesterdays memories that have passed us by
I try sometimes with all my heart to move on..
As I put these memories aside..
Moving on praying someday maybe there be..
Just one special guy out there to truly love only me
For the queen I've always wanted to be.
Until then I live my life the best I know how
I face tomorrow with this life of doubt
With a guy that I call mine
I try so hard with all that I am
To make things work out between us
The best I know how..
I feel sometimes things are great..
But then there are times;
Like now, he's only in my life to betray me
I know in my heart that Jesus would want me to stay..
But sometimes I want to give up and walk away
I know two wrongs do not make a right
I've known this most of my life
But why on earth should I stay
When I am the only one trying to make this work?
I am human too, I breathe and bleed the same as all of you do
So tell me men,what is it about me that makes your eye's look the other way?
I get told alot that I am beautiful, and I love whole heartily.
I am a good person, wife and mother
What is about me, that makes you want to hurt me?
Where oh where is he' the man
Who holds passionate eye's that God has giveth for only me?
I know it's not my place to ask..
God only you know my heart and where it's been
Only you know Father of my burden's within.
I forgive those Father whom have hurt me along the way
Dear God,I ask you to forgive them too
For they know not what they do
Help them Father not make the same mistake,
With others, as they have with me Amen