I'm sorry for being a bad kid.
I'm sorry fo wanting too much.
Was that why you left us,
When everything got messed up?
Just tell me,
I want to know.
Did you ever love me?
Or dd you just put on a show?
Was it like in a movie,
All acting nothing real?
Because to let you know you fooled me,
And than just disappeared.
You called from time to time,
To ask if I'm okay.
Later I found out your friends where there to see,
So you just wanted to show them,
What a caring person you could be.
She explained to me so many times before that it wasn't my fault.
But all of those times I knew the truth...
You never wanted to be involved.
It didn't matter if I were your kid.
It didn't matter to you.
That was what hurt me the most.
You know my sister,
The one that is sick.
Well she needed your love more than I ever did.
But you just left.
Walked out the door.
Closing it behind you was no problem at all.
So just answer me please,
Because I need to know.
Will you be there for me ever again,
When I'm in pain and in need of your help?
WIll you beat the next guy that breaks my heart?
Or will you at least be there to give me a hug?
Because I am jelous of all of my friends,
That have a family and are happy with that.
I on the other hand want to commit suicide.
Maybe that's what I have to do to open your eyes.