The old story goes that when
we die our soul goes
And ascends to the heavens
above, but who really knows?
But Iím not concerned about
where my soul will go
Because Iím still trying to
find out if I even have one of those
What is my soul? My spirit, essence,
energy, aura or glow?
Where is my soul when Iím
alive?Ö I really donít know
Because supposedly itís
there before we die
Like a fire itís said that
our souls burn inside
Itís seen in our hearts and
itís seen in our eyes
But is it really there or am
I just being blind?
Was it there when love
turned from butterflies to ďcompromiseĒ?
Was it there when I was young
and life was always a surprise?
Was is there the first time
I said I loved
And was it there the first
time I told lies?
Was it there when I was a
baby and my mother tended to my cries?
Because Iím dying now to
find out where my soul truly resides
Because how can I predict a
destiny for something that desires salvation
When I canít even understand
its realness or formation?
Was my soul there when I was
a fetus and went underwent neuralization?
Or was it there at day 21,
when my heart started beating with regulation?
Is it there when my ecto-,
endo-, and mesoderm start their primitive migration?
Or is it there before, when
my synctiotrophoblast invaded during implantation?
Was my soul there when I was
a ball of cells undergoing gastrulation?
Or was my soul there at the
first division; the very start of differentiation
Because if you believe a
soul is placed there upon conceptionís congregation
Then thatís to say you
believe a soul is the product on an acrosomeís penetration
The culmination of a
spermatocyte causing the zona pellucidaís depolarization
So is there a soul in a sex
cell thatís haploid before our chromosomesícombination?
Because even the novel sequences
of the DNA that make us have known configurations
Ribose sugars, a nucleic
acid chained helix and some phosphorylation
And those are each composed
of known atoms in different orientations
Is our soul there? In the
empty spaces between our atomsí nucleus and orbital rotations?
If our soul energy then must
it not have mass that takes up some space in physical manifestation?
Or is it aura, a light of a
massless glow that emits from within us like radiation?
Or is our soul really just
the fact that we are aware and have come to a higher realization?
A figment of our imagination
designed uniquely for the thought of self preservation
But why then, when we are
angry our minds sense so much frustration?
And when we are happy itís
our whole body that feels elation
In sadness our entire essence
is stuck in an act of desperation
And in love it is our entire
being that craves more of that sensation
See, we donít know what most
of the universe is comprised of, but we still all see the beauty of its
Thatís why even though we may
never find the soul inside us; I still hope your soul is my soulís destination