Why did I take you for granted?
Never thought I'd feel so bad
Thinking of you endlessly
All the great times that we had
They reached down and took you away
It's making me feel so alone
Wishing I had you here today
You'd kill me for being so weak
But I can't find any other way
The pain is here to stay...
The prevention kills me
The futility screams at me
The anger bleeds from my soul
The panic eats my life...
Sadness clouds al lthat I see
What will it take for it to be free?
But still I sleep
I'll take this pain
And your memory is mine to keep
Holding back these tears
As I kneel beside your grave
Why did you have to do this?
Another life I could have saved
And I just can't bear to imagine...
The agony you must have felt...
So many questions left beside the stone I knelt
Or did you even care at all?
Did your selfishness commence your downfall?
And the wonder eats me away
As the questions kill me every day
I find solace in this inquisition
As futile as inquisition seems...
And the anger rips my pain
The very thought of you drives me insane
Is this all
You wanted from me?
Feeling your pain endlessly...
I struggle to comprehend
The reasons you inflicted your fate
Was it me
Was it God
Was it life itself?
Would you care to see me in this state?
Do I need to feel what you felt to answer this question?
Will I end it all to end this confusion?
But that's what you'd want me to feel...
To feel as dead as you
To feel as lame as you
To feel as spiteful and agonised as you
I won't stay
In this pain
I won't feel the same
So this demon of inquisition I will tame
As some things were better left