Listening to that old track really takes me back
To dropping my son at day care those days.
Listening to the same CD, 18 years ago today.
How troubled and sad I felt, brushing tears away.
And his tears too on being dropped off there
After mommy and daddy went their way.
His lonely eyes ripped out my heart that day
My own tears of shame as I drove away.
I couldn't let him or anyone else see.
You said he'd be fine, no scars would there be.
But I know you lied. I still see his eyes.
I watched him change as you unmade our lives.
Oh, God knows how we since tried to survive.
How we tried to make things work and please.
But you lied, honey, you lied. He and I still cry.
We cry so very deep inside now its hard to say why.
But never, ever have we found what we needed,
The forgiveness, peace, or love inside of you.
Many things we've done, to people we've been true.
I'm still driving that damn road and I know so is he.
So, this song still sounds the same when I listen.
No matter how old I get, sometimes I still feel smitten.
My life all but spent, now I worry much about his.
I hope for his sake, he's let go, and forgets to listen.