Secluded in my lonely thoughts of pessimistic dreams

that I see fading away in the dark tunnel that leads to nowhere

I’m no longer content with these basic needs

that used to feed my soul

Now I want so much more from life,

A visual appeal to brighten my worn out soul

I have no energy to even crawl this worthless body out of bed,

but my bed is the only place where I feel safe

So I sleep away the pain

Only now,

Paranoia has crept its way in my dreams 

that are now horrifying nightmares

Insomnia has become my new best friend,

My only friend

3 a.m., 

I drag my tired feet down the cold stairs

hearing nothing but a shrilling cry that is my own

I can no longer hide behind these death-filled tears 

My eyes have cried their last tear

And as I plunge onto the hollow ground,

I have nothing to show but a life filled with fear